Thursday 18th October Findley should have been 3 months old yesterday. I should be posting a photo of my beautiful boy with his little card next to him. Instead on Monday I light a candle of remembrance for him. I found Monday's wave of light difficult yet really comforting. I have found myself since then... Continue Reading →

Monday 14th October Attempted another Vlog happy viewing   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oXF0Ac4aX2Q&feature=share

Saturday 13th October I have been thinking a lot about Findley Today, I think it's because my amazing sister in law is raising money in Findley's honour, running her first half marathon tomorrow. I am beyond proud of her, I really wanted to go and see her finish, but I just can't handle the thought... Continue Reading →

Tuesday 9th October I though I would try a Vlog today! Happy viewing https://youtu.be/k8BVjcdk5Bc

Saturday 6th October As the numbers of days since Findley died slowly increase the pain slowly fades. I don't think is has gone away, I just think that a small part of me has learned to deal with the loss. Today was another mile stone in our journey, I have planned for weeks to have... Continue Reading →

Tuesday 2nd October 80 days since your heart beat last for this world Little man. I am not sure where the time has gone. Today the final report into Findley’s death landed on my door mat. I have had the draft for a few months but reading Words on the front of the envelope took... Continue Reading →

Monday 1st October I can not believe it's October. Where has the last months gone. I woke up this morning feeling sad, it's the first time in a while since I have done this, the kind of sad where I wonder what the point Of my life is now Findley isn't here. I am a... Continue Reading →

Sunday 30th September My darling Findley, It's been 11 weeks since your heart stopped beating for this world. It breaks my heart to think about how you were taken from us. No a minute goes by when I don't have you in my thoughts. I speak about you every day, to anyone who will listen.... Continue Reading →

Saturday 29th September Today has be a sad day for me, I saw my one of my soul sister pack her belongings into a van and move house. It's bitter sweet, she's starting a new chapter in her life, but for some reason I am finding it hard to imagine what she is having to... Continue Reading →

Friday 28th September I am so grumpy tonight, I am hoping that this is a good sign that it's a bit of PMS, I am shattered, didn't sleep well last night. Feel super short tempered. Poor James. I have had a good few days, busy out on the bike and having some chill time. It's... Continue Reading →