25th Feb 2021 I can’t believe its been two years since i woke up with a horrible gut feeling for my 16 weeks scan with Robyn. James was away and Rach was coming with me to my scan because, i knew she was the only person that i wanted with me for if it was... Continue Reading →

So i just signed up to run 50miles in march for SANDs, I am looking forward to it, i love a challenge, and i am enjoying my running, its nice to just run again. I am on week 7 of couch to 5k, i am extremely over weight, and facebook keeps reminding me that 8... Continue Reading →

So I have experinced lots of mummy guilt since Lewis was born, my breast feeding journey was a disaster, I bumped his head on the rafters in my bedroom, and I got soap in his eye when washing his hair, just to nail a few. This was a new feeling I thought , but actually... Continue Reading →

Sooo I recently had a massive argument with a family member at Christmas, as they didn’t acknowledge Findley and Robyn. To be honest they have never acknowledged them since they died, my mum always defended them saying they didn’t know what to do for the best. Lets face it we have had two years from... Continue Reading →

I found myself back in hospital recently, I developed a wounds from a reaction to a dressing for my section. Literally nothing is simple when it comes to me.. and I promise I am not being overly dramatic here 🤣. .. I have not healed correctly from the trauma of my section and it’s not... Continue Reading →

I don’t even know what day it is, Sunday I think. Anyway I wanted to write a quick blog (as always) to let the world know that our miracle rainbow baby arrives safely bum first via a planned section on Wed 2nd September, weighing 7lbs 6.5, not bad for 36+5 weeks. Lewis George Ruaridh Law,... Continue Reading →

I thought I would blog more during this pregnancy but I just have found that it’s not been at the forefront of my mind. I have used social media more to share our journey. I worry people think it’s for attention, when all I really want to do is help remove the taboo of child... Continue Reading →

17th July 2020 Where has two years gone, I can not believe it’s been two years since I first saw Findley little chubby cheeks. I am not going to lie this week has been hard. Sunday saw me in with a freak out over movements, lucky Rach was on and looked after me, I have... Continue Reading →

I love being woken up by my baby, it’s literally the most enjoyable thing about this pregnancy, I woke up early with a somersault, grab James hand so he can enjoy it with me, but by the time I wake him up, LJ has decided he’s only playing for mummy. No matter how many times... Continue Reading →

So last night for some reason I started having flash backs to rubislaw. I don’t know what triggered it, and I can’t decided if it was a flash back, or a fear of what might happen. I didn’t really want to investigate it to much. Some things are best left. I had a nice day... Continue Reading →