Is he your first ..

I found myself back in hospital recently, I developed a wounds from a reaction to a dressing for my section. Literally nothing is simple when it comes to me.. and I promise I am not being overly dramatic here 🤣. .. I have not healed correctly from the trauma of my section and it’s not... Continue Reading →

Welcome to the family

I don’t even know what day it is, Sunday I think. Anyway I wanted to write a quick blog (as always) to let the world know that our miracle rainbow baby arrives safely bum first via a planned section on Wed 2nd September, weighing 7lbs 6.5, not bad for 36+5 weeks. Lewis George Ruaridh Law,... Continue Reading →

Pregnancy blogging

I thought I would blog more during this pregnancy but I just have found that it’s not been at the forefront of my mind. I have used social media more to share our journey. I worry people think it’s for attention, when all I really want to do is help remove the taboo of child... Continue Reading →

Happy 2nd Birthday

17th July 2020 Where has two years gone, I can not believe it’s been two years since I first saw Findley little chubby cheeks. I am not going to lie this week has been hard. Sunday saw me in with a freak out over movements, lucky Rach was on and looked after me, I have... Continue Reading →

Stupid Brian .. living with PTSD

So last night for some reason I started having flash backs to rubislaw. I don’t know what triggered it, and I can’t decided if it was a flash back, or a fear of what might happen. I didn’t really want to investigate it to much. Some things are best left. I had a nice day... Continue Reading →


7th June 2020 I feel like I am losing my mind, it’s like 4am and I am lying here awake waiting for LJ to kick and wriggle!! Like he’s a circus elephant. I never did this with Findley, I always loved feeling him kicking when I woke up in the morning, now I feel like... Continue Reading →

Blood thinners

So lots of people are asking me what my plan is duding my pregnancy that’s different from before . I have been on aspirin since I was 12 week pregnant with Robyn, and next stopped the dose doubled when I hit 7 weeks with this pregnancy to 150mg daily. I am also started injecting blood... Continue Reading →

Sorry for the radio silence!

I have started to write sooo many blogs in the last 6 months and just stopped myself, I don’t know why, but maybe one reason is, I feel people use my blogs to spy and then think they have an idea of how I am feeling, which really irritates me for some reason, I chose... Continue Reading →

Happy 1st Bithday Robyn

26th Febuary 2020 I can not beleive it's been a year since I last held Robyn, 365days, she was so tiny, and it feels like only yesterday, I can't believe we survived it. I feel a little bad to say that I have found today easier than Findley birthday, I cant tell you why but... Continue Reading →

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