21st November 2018 pour yourself a coffe, out your feet up this is a long one https://youtu.be/FAL1n3VX5nU  

Saturday 17th November It's hard to think that Findley would be 4 months old today, he would be starting to look like a wee man am so sure of it. I was looking at some of my yoga belly mums photos, and it just reminds me of how Findley should be. It also reminds me... Continue Reading →

15th November 2018 so I have been really quiet mainly because I had a really hard couple of days last week then I went to see James again in Norway this week.  I had such a nice trip. I have done a tiger vlog! Hope you enjoyed! Feeling brave. https://youtu.be/WPuCY0X83to

Monday 5th November Another Vlog today, instead of me writing drivel, now you can  listen to me speak it. https://youtu.be/IP2_J9ubTnU

Sunday 4th November Not one person can appreciate how difficult it is to deal with PMS whilst grieving. The girls on SANDS that I speak to warned me, but I kind of dismissed it. I was super glad to see my cycle return after loosing Findley, It took 12 weeks to the day he died.... Continue Reading →

Friday 2nd November answer, how ever the hell you want! There are no how to guides on how to deal with loosing something you made, something so precious, loved and wanted, before you even get to hold them. There are so many books written about it, lots of people share their experiences, lots of people... Continue Reading →

Thursday 1st November Another day, another month, hello November, as each days ticks past, I am struggling to still hold on tightly to Findley, I am noticing now how everyone life's have started to move forward, return to the new normality. Except mine, I am sitting waiting for my rainbow. I feel like my life... Continue Reading →

Friday 26th October https://youtu.be/fahr069-fzE   It's almost a year now since Findley was conceived .. wow where has the time gone, it would have been this cycle last year. I remember being like, I have had enough of this now, month after month of negative tests or my period arriving as it normally did bang... Continue Reading →

Wednesday 25th October So I came to Norway, just for a few days, I didn't really know what I was doing until I was sitting in Aberdeen airport thinking shit!! It felt nice on Sunday dropping James off at the airport knowing I would be seeing him again in just one moe sleep. The last... Continue Reading →

Friday 19th July Be brave, if not pretend to be brave. I used to have this mantra when I rode my horses, just fake it till you make it basically. I probably have been trying to do this a little since Findley died to allow me to move on with life. Today I have gone... Continue Reading →