365 Days 🥰

365 days of this gorgeous girl, she is the most chilled baby ever… i mean she hates milk but once we got past that its been a breeze to be your mummy!! What a blessing! I wouldn’t change a thing about her 🥰. I couldn’t let today pass without a wee blog.

365 day of not being pregnant, the longest since November 2017 🤯 when we started trying for our family, it blows my mind..

365 day of no hospital admissions… yes that right zero drama, well.. I am waiting on a small heart surgery but that no drama hopefully…

Gives me a little bit of time to reflect.. turns out when all the noise is gone from life, life’s still hard, juggling being a mum of two babys here on earth, and a husband who works all over the world 🌍 has definitely had is challanges… Parenting a 4 year old turns out to be hard work to …it soooo hard to get stuck in the negatives and the hard parts of life, even when its drama free. I have to spend alot of time reminding myself of the good parts of my day, but i think that is because I hyper critical of myself.. so to all the mums out there learning to live again after loss be kind to yourselves as your the only one who can.

I am sooo lucky we are currenlty sailing the Caribbean in a luxury cruise ship with Lewis, Freya, James and my mum having the best time, even if it is just parenting in another country its amazing 🤩. Look how gorgeous my family is.. I still find myself looking up at the stars listening to the waves and wonder .. what if, and where are my other precious babes.

I have no idea if anyone reads this still, but i hope that one day someone who has walked a similar path to me stubbles across it and it gives them hope, and strength to keep being that strong mummy, to know that lifes hard we just have different challenged to overcome before we then deal with the normal shit in life .. so just because my rainbows are here dont think i dont still have hard days, no one really warns you how hard parenting is, its life changing… be kind to yourself, take a step back and realise what a bad ass you really are.. and remember the good will always out-way the hard days if you let it!!