So after being a bit concerned about my recovery from my miscarriage I had a scan on Monday which showered retained product of pregnancy, which I also had with Robyn, so although not surprised was disheartened to hear we needed surgery. As always my consultant was supportive and we got booked in for the next... Continue Reading →

I hate this part, i hate the physical recovery from loss … it’s a constant reminder that i am no longer pregnant, and i don’t need it. It can kindly fuck off. Honestly i have done everything i can to try and avoid feeling this shit, including looking at selling my house (which i quit... Continue Reading →

It felt a bit of a dajvu being back in rubislaw taking the medication, February 2019 was in my mind, but i just wanted it over with. James went home and i stayed overnight, its too much of a trigger going home for me, it brings back the memories of Findley that tome between death... Continue Reading →

3rd February 2023 I have been so so proud of myself this pregnancy, I have taken each day at a time, and at my twelve weeks scan i actually got a little excited and hopeful. I shared with friends and family but decided to not let Lewis know. Hes to little to understand yet. I... Continue Reading →

What a year 2022 has been for our journey. In January we were so excited to find out we were expecting again, specially after a ruptured ectopic in 2021, was so happy i wasn’t broken … alas on Robyns 3rd birthday we had a miscarriage. Never mind try again, and then 6 weeks later i... Continue Reading →

I had all the intentions if keeping my blog up to date but unfortunately i have been o unwell it hasn’t happened, after the methotrexate I felt rubbish for a good week and during this time I struggled with my mental heath so just focused in me and my family. After feeling much better last... Continue Reading →

So after last weeks missed miscarriage information I had started to settle in letting it all happen naturally as it was very early days and there was no baby just a sac. So i had started bleeding on the Saturday and thought, thank god the end is in site, if am honest after everything we... Continue Reading →

I am currently 7 weeks pregnant.. i know i dont waste any time, however this was an absolute whoops!! I spent the last 3 weeks pretending nothing was happening as deep down i knew something wasnt right. I had what i thought was my period in February, I said to my friend i swear if... Continue Reading →

25th Feb 2021 I can’t believe its been two years since i woke up with a horrible gut feeling for my 16 weeks scan with Robyn. James was away and Rach was coming with me to my scan because, i knew she was the only person that i wanted with me for if it was... Continue Reading →

So i just signed up to run 50miles in march for SANDs, I am looking forward to it, i love a challenge, and i am enjoying my running, its nice to just run again. I am on week 7 of couch to 5k, i am extremely over weight, and facebook keeps reminding me that 8... Continue Reading →