Todays run honestly felt like Findlay was with me at Bennachie, the butterfly’s floating up from the grass, and crossing in-front of me, the silence but the whisper of the trees and animals, the sun shining through the gaps in the trees, it was soo nice, I thought he would be proud of me, of... Continue Reading →

Funny saying “time heals all wounds” its a very common saying, that over time emotional pain lessons.. if someone had said to me 7 years ago.. yes SEVEN, i typed correctly, its mind blowing, that time will heal all wounds, i think i would have punched them square in the face. However… I guess time... Continue Reading →

365 days of this gorgeous girl, she is the most chilled baby ever… i mean she hates milk but once we got past that its been a breeze to be your mummy!! What a blessing! I wouldn’t change a thing about her 🥰. I couldn’t let today pass without a wee blog. 365 day of... Continue Reading →

What a weird heading to write, I am a peace. 6 years ago I delivered my first daughter Robyn, after going to my reassurance scan and her dying hours later , shes was only 16 weeks so the experience was so very different from Findley, but the moment they wheeled me back into that room... Continue Reading →

A few weeks ago i realised it has been 7 years ago I found out i was pregnant with Findley… and life changed for ever. It took 2 years to get lewis here safely, then another 4 to get Freya here safely.. and the time between then and now seems like a blur . Some... Continue Reading →

I still cant believe we have a 4 yr old, feels like yesterday I was having my section, hes amazing, hes wild and independent, very strong willed .. but also very loving, and caring. Hes starting to ask questions like .. but why mum? mummy how did Freya get out of your tummy? Mummy can... Continue Reading →

I can not believe its a year since I found out I was pregnant with Freya. I did one cheap pregnancy test decided there was a line and emailed my consultant. I resisted all temptation to test again and I thing that was to do with denial. Once i found out I was pregnant I... Continue Reading →

21st July 2024 I remember the moment i hit post on this ⬆️, it took me the whole journey home from buckie crematorium to write it, its like it wasn’t real if everyone didnt know, we had kept it very private, in a world were it didn’t happen if it wasn’t on social media.. it... Continue Reading →

15th July 2024 Its been 6 year since that day, the day I thought.. something isnt right, the day I walked into Westburn, to hear those words “am so sorry, your baby has died” . No one will ever understand the feeling and emotions that this brings, it isn’t and never will be acceptable to... Continue Reading →

15th July 2024 Its been 6 year since that day, the day I thought.. something isnt right, the day I walked into Westburn, to hear those words “am so sorry, your baby has died” . No one will ever understand the feeling and emotions that this brings, it isn’t and never will be acceptable to... Continue Reading →